最近都一直烦要搬去哪里住。公司附近?租金贵。家乡?塞车,高速公路费用,车油,加起来可以住贵一点又靠近公司的房。
五月尾,我搬离了蒲种,去姐姐家暂住。可是只可以住一个月。这个月就搬了。还没找到地方住。问她说可以住多一个月吗?有一些人就发脾气要骂我。真讨厌!以前我借头期给他们买房子,借了一年多都没催还,后来自己很急很急要还 ptptn 才叫妈妈帮我追回,害我妈妈帮我还那个 ptptn 利息,又不看他们赔回我!我放进银行还有利息拿。现在什么利息都没拿,没关系,可是还要看人家的脸色。算了咯!还要叫我给租金,问他们给多少,又退三退四。每一天要等人家开门我才可以出门做工,放工回家又要人家开门让我进。给我一把钥匙很难吗?
这真的应征那句话:好心没好报。
我最向往的是有自己的一个窝。无忧无虑的一个小小歇息的落脚处。不需要奢华。不需要顶级设备。
我知道。做人不要计较。可是我真的做不到。我试过很大方。可是一次又一次的被失望刺痛我的心。我已经不想在揣测它人多余的举动。
我想我的好心就到此为止吧!被把我的无情归罪于我!我会学者自我保护。流过的泪,伤过的心就当我欠你们的!以后不拖不欠。各走各的。
亲情?友情?爱情?我已经不再相信信口开河的承诺。
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wa, need or not oh...
ReplyDeletei don't have siblings, so, i don't really know how you felt. but, you are a grown up also already. this is a good chance for you to learn to deal with "adult world problems", hehe. you don't have to say too much. just remember that, "actions speak louder than words". people will hear you through your actions. JIA YOU!
juz felt betrayed so much by the one tat i love and care as we called 'family'. i mean juz a room onli, not saying i wont pay a cent. i wont interrupt their life also. i really dont understand what is 'family' stand for anymore... not onli these thingz, other thingz happened as well.
ReplyDeletemy outlook is grown up, but inner stil a little gal tat doesnt secure and inconfidence.
i noe no matter how, the onli way is ownself helpz ownself in the end.
independent and smart r the thing i lack of.
i couldnt make decision as i since young were pampered to depent on people, so when people dint advice me, or advice me, i still couldnt decide as i noe everything has pro and con, i really scare of regret.
i am not so brave as u mah. alone go so far and want to do wat u want and noe wat u want. :)
i dont noe wat i want and doesnt have the courage to bear the risk.
anyway, jia you too~ tiz is life. take it and life with it onli lo.
hehe, you think that i'm brave? yes, i might be brave, but at the same time, i have to admit that i'm scared and terrified too. i just believe if i want something desperate enough, and i am willing to go out to get it, i will get it, eventually.
ReplyDeletei'm the only child of my parents. i was pampered, and am still being pampered(actually, i like it, hehe). but i still learn as i get pampered. everyone learns through failing. don't be afraid to fail. it might be hard and hurtful, but you will grow, slowly, to be stronger. this is life...you don't get to choose when to be born, or which family to be born, but you can choose to make full use of it.
jia you! make it as colourful and as meaningful as you can ^^
u r ready to take risk and u noe exactly wat u want. once u want something u get it. u r the onli child no siblings. i was pampered by a lot ppl, i got a lot siblings.
ReplyDeletesince i was small i nvr make a decision on my own. until now it becomes my worse character already as i cant decide in everything i do, i have no enough confidence and courage to decide should i or shouldnt i do the thing.
娇生惯养变成强烈的依赖。once they cant make a decision for me when i ask for advice, i really cant decide.
maybe u grown up in different background and the thing u faced isnt same with mine.
u r pampered in a good way. i am pampered in a bad way. haha.
每次要做任何决定时,我都无法衡量我应该怎么做才是最好的。最后只是苦了自己。
现在的我不晓得目标是什么。赚钱?奋斗?为了什么?过好日子?怎么才算好日子?很多钱花就会开心吗?
我只是很想有一个很靠近公司的家。做工一整天累了就快快回家休息,看戏。多美好~
你呢?过着澳洲人的 'holiday working' style?呵呵。喜欢就出去别州玩。
做工后没去想玩了。没时间想呢~
take care oh~ update more on ur blog and post more picture. ^^